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My Angel

All the things Ive done before this
They dont mean a thing
And all the words spoken before this
Wont be said again
Suddenly so much of me has
No need 2 pretend
Cause theres nothin like the truth
To bring her back to u
And everyone Ive met before this
Aint seen me with u

Angel My Angel Angel
Angel My Angel Angel

Youre the only one who knows what I go through
Sometime u feel it even more than me
And I dont know how I ever got by without u
Theres nothing like the truth
And Ive got nothin left 2 lose
And every night I thank the universe that I found u

Angel My Angel Angels
Angel My Angel Angels

And I dont have 2 wonder
What the world thinks about me
I know youre in my corner
Youre always surrounding me
With your love

And if we all explode
See we would never know
But I just hope the pieces of my soul
Reach out 2 u 2 find my angel

My Angels My Angels
Angels My Angels
My Angels

(I heard this song today and it made me cry..)
This is for you my Ping..
Love you

All the colors fade when you're gone...

Will you be mine?...

These flowers made it packed in his suitcase on the plane... :)

The only thing I wanted! A LOVE letter... (He did good! It made me cry) :)

Loves... :)

I couldn't have asked for a better Valentines day then the one I had this year...  I got to see his face and be surrounded by his love and in his arms...  There is nothing I wanted more.. I even got a Love letter from him that was so sweet and so us..  His words mean everything to me and I have read it everyday since he left..
This trip was a different one in the fact that we had my kids and went to work and actually lived a "normal everyday life" It was nice.. We got to see each other in a different light and I loved every min. He was so sweet with my kids.. Playing with them, getting on their level and he even snuggled them in bed with me while we watched tv..  All that was missing was his kids..  I hope to one day have the chance to be around his kids like that.. 
There was a moment on his last night here where he was working in the kitchen at the table and I was cleaning and doing laundry, kids playing upstairs..  and the feeling that came over me was so peaceful and so content and so incredibly happy! I have longed for that feeling for SOOO long and I can't tell you how good it felt..  He was listening to music while he worked and at one point when I walked back he grabbed me and starting dancing with me... it was so romantical and so special...We laughed and kissed and then went right back to work... It is a moment I will never forget.. All that I kept thinking was... IS THIS WHAT IT'S LIKE??  Is this what a happy couple and good relationship feels like??  I never want the feeling to end... It's amazing to be so completely comfortable with another person that anything they do even if its annoying or whatever it may be you still LOVE and adore them so much. I have such a desire to make him happy and be all that he needs..  He is such a good man with such a tender heart.. He knows how to communicate with me and knows what I need to hear at certain times and takes the time to really listen and understand what I'm feeling..  I have never had that and it means more then he will ever know...

He is gone now and oh how I miss him!!  I'm at ease in his arms... and now most of my days are spent alone and it's so hard on me having a little piece of heaven and then having it be gone... Home is where your heart is and my heart is with him... so I feel like a part of me is missing and the memories around every corner are haunting at times.. His cup he had on the night stand is still there, the towel he left on the bathroom floor,  the spot on the table is still cleared where he worked, I'm still sleeping in our sheets, the flowers he brought me are now dead in their vase and i can't bring myself to throw them away...  I love him so much...

All the colors seem to fade when you're gone...

Georgia on my mind...

See that smile on face?..

It's hard being a girl sometimes.. The feelings, the emotions, the anxiety... AHHHHH!!
Being so far away from the one you love is so HARD! I miss him in everything I do... I see something funny, i wish he was here to see.. I eat something yummy, I wish he could taste it too... Sometimes I feel so alone... It seems to be a lot easier for the man and I can't figure out why..  Doesn't he wish I were there for those moments too? He is doing so much better and and that means he is going out and doing more things.. and while I'm happy he is happy and doing stuff... I can't help but wonder does he miss me? Does he wish I were there like I do him?...
I know i say this a lot but I just want to live MY happy life! and for me that means a life at peace with myself and my relationship... being in love and being surrounded by love everyday..  It's all I have ever wanted. I want to be with him and experience this life together. by each others side helping each other with what ever comes our way..  Sometimes I start freaking out because I just turned 30 and to me I feel like my life hasn't even begun yet and it's already half over! When will it ever be my turn to live a fulfilled happy life? I want it so bad...
I would move today if he wanted me to.. I just want to be happy and he makes me happy... and I want to spend the rest of my life making him as happy as he makes me...

Lonely in Salt Lake City with Georgia on my mind...

13 Days...

13 DAYS until Valentines Day! LOVE day... HEART DAY! DAY for LOVERS...  :) and 13 days until I get to see my PING!!  I'm so excited to have him here on Valentines Day!!!  It means so much to me to actually get to see his face and kiss his face on a holiday...  (you have no idea how much it means to me) Valentines Day has been a rough, sad day for me for a lot of years now and I just can't wait to have my person, My special somebody here to share it with me...

LoVe HiM sO mUcH...

When I'm not there...

When I'm not there.... Do you think of me?..
When you're sad and something is bothering you... Do you wish I were there to help comfort you?...
When you've had a long, hard day.... Do you smile knowing that soon you'll be seeing my face and everything will seem better, even if just for a moment?...
When you lay down at night.... Do you look back and cherish the memories you've made with me?...  And when you get up in the morning, does everything inside you smile, knowing that this will be another day that we'll be together?...
Because that's how I think of you...

Snuggles & Snow in Georgia...

 The best bed in the world...

Snowed in...

This trip out to see my Ping was great as always...  We went and saw The Black Swan... (it was crazy) lol..  We went grocery shopping..  It was so fun to walk up and down the aisles and pick stuff out together. Good thing we did go shopping because the next day we got SNOWED in! All the schools and most business were closed. The roads were covered in ice and so we stayed in and cooked everything from steaks, turkey, muffins, and brownies... It was fun and my Ping is good cook! He is very handy in the kitchen! ;) I learn a lot from him. I made him snuggle with me and watched movies in bed every night! It was heaven! We also drove in to Atlanta to go to my showroom there and went to dinner with my parents and sister. It was a lot of fun! There was ice all over the freeway coming home.. good thing my Ping is a beast on the road! lol... I kiss his face umpteen million times from cheek to cheek and on his lips..  He says "she loves me too much" lol..  I can't help it! I love his face so much! The time always flies when I'm out there and I hate getting dropped off at the airport..  It's such an empty feeling leaving him.. I miss him so much.