Lost without you..

 My favorite place to be.. :)

 The full moon...

Aw... We made a shake and had to taste it old school style...We are cute like that.. ;)

This last trip out to see my honey was Amazing as always... I stayed 11 whole days and we had so much fun.. I loved helping him hang up pictures and clean and organize and do laundry.. it makes me feel so good to do these things for him.. I stress out being so far away from him and not being able to do these things for him on a regular basis..  I'm old school that way.. :) I'm a nurturer.. Love taking care of my Ping in any way I can..  We went out to eat and snoodled (I have this new snoodle where I'm all up on him and even wrap my arm up around his head and hold the back of his head) He loves it!!  NOT! hee hee... but he lets me do it for a min.. :) and watched movies.. Its so amazing how our relationship has evolved over time..  we laughed about "how we used to be" and how we are now so comfortable and at ease with who and how we are..  He is truly my best friend, the one I share everything with.. I feel so at ease with him and for the first time ever I feel complete.. So content.. and that is what makes leaving so hard! I never want that feeling to end.. The feeling I have when I come back home is just so lost and empty..  I feel like a stranger in my own house..  He is my home.. my heart is with him so without him I feel so sad and lost..  I cried the night before I left, I cried as he got ready for work, I cried as I cleaned the house for the last time, I cried as I left little love notes around his house for him to find, and I cried all the way to the airport.. I'm tearing up writing this now..  I'm such a baby I know..  I just love him so much..  I went to the grocery store a couple days after I got home and I just kept picturing me and my routine in Georgia.. Picturing the store there and wishing I was back there..  Anyways, I'm trying to get back into the swing of things here but have such a longing to get back there.. I miss him all day, everyday... and especially at nights.. :(