Dying to see your face again...

As I mentioned in my last post..  The Holidays can be especially hard without the one you love.. But do you know what makes them even harder?... Not being able to talk/text/skype with him like you normally do..  i am having such a hard time right now with this. I'm feeling so alone and lonely... Like a piece of me is missing...

You see his family has been in town since before Christmas and that means I can't see/talk/text him like I usually do.. and while I understand that he is entertaining them I can't help but feel sad.. He is my best friend I share everything with and not being able to share our days and talk about stuff is really taking a toll on me.. I know he doesn't mean to not contact me but it still makes me sad... Being so far apart this is all we have and without I get so down..  I miss everything.. Seeing his face everyday, laughing with him... I'm just over here not even knowing what he is doing day to day and the unknown is not a fun place to be.  I want to feel involved even just a little... Also with the family in town that means spending more time over at her house... I can't even begin to describe how that feels and what it does to me knowing they are all over there. I'm trying so hard to be strong but it's wearing on me pretty bad.. I'm so sad! I miss him horribly... My anxiety is at an all time high...  i want my ping back..  The family doesn't leave til Friday and then Friday is his weekend with his kids... So it isn't looking too good for me any time soon. I hope I will be able to make it through this week.. 
I can't wait for the day when I can just be with him and that things like this won't interrupt OUR everyday life..  and I will be able to be involved and included.. He is my number 1 and I'm here for him day in and day out 24/7 whenever, wherever... and I'm happy to be.. I love him with all my heart..  I just can't wait for the day when he CAN be there like that for me too... Like I always say... We have to get through this to be able to get there...

Sad and lonely, missing you so much it hurts, dying to see your face again...
~B