Georgia on my mind...

See that smile on face?..

It's hard being a girl sometimes.. The feelings, the emotions, the anxiety... AHHHHH!!
Being so far away from the one you love is so HARD! I miss him in everything I do... I see something funny, i wish he was here to see.. I eat something yummy, I wish he could taste it too... Sometimes I feel so alone... It seems to be a lot easier for the man and I can't figure out why..  Doesn't he wish I were there for those moments too? He is doing so much better and and that means he is going out and doing more things.. and while I'm happy he is happy and doing stuff... I can't help but wonder does he miss me? Does he wish I were there like I do him?...
I know i say this a lot but I just want to live MY happy life! and for me that means a life at peace with myself and my relationship... being in love and being surrounded by love everyday..  It's all I have ever wanted. I want to be with him and experience this life together. by each others side helping each other with what ever comes our way..  Sometimes I start freaking out because I just turned 30 and to me I feel like my life hasn't even begun yet and it's already half over! When will it ever be my turn to live a fulfilled happy life? I want it so bad...
I would move today if he wanted me to.. I just want to be happy and he makes me happy... and I want to spend the rest of my life making him as happy as he makes me...

Lonely in Salt Lake City with Georgia on my mind...