So much I want to say...

There is so much I want to say to you...
I hope you aren't upset with me.. I hope you still feel the same about me...
I know times are rough and I know and understand what you are dealing with...You are such a strong person to deal with all that you are right now...I know.. I worry about you everyday... I'm trying so hard to leave you alone and just be here... I'm sorry... I really am trying.. I want you to know that you are worth it to me and I'm willing to do what it takes... I hope that I'm worth it to you and that we will continue to get through all this together.. I do know you and I know your heart...I'm sorry if I ever come across that I don't understand.. Sometimes it hits me extra hard how much I miss you and I don't ever want our closeness to go away.. I want us to be strong and be connected always..

I know I love you and I know I want to be you... YOU are my person.. the person I think about first thing when I wake up, the person I think about and worry about all day wondering is he okay, is he eating, did he sleep, how is he feeling, does he know how much I care and love him, You are the reason a smile will appear on my face during the day just thinking of your cute face or something that you may have said, you are the person I think about while driving anywhere wishing so bad you were next to me holding my hand, you are the person I want to call and tell everything to... funny or sad whatever it may be, you are the person I want to eat my meals with, you are the person I want to laugh and cry with, you are the person I want to be around my kids and play with all our kids together, you are the person I want to sing crazy songs with and snuggle on the couch with, you are the person I want to travel with and experience new things with, you are the person I want to kiss each day when I get up in the morning and you are the person I want to hold me at night and whisper things to in bed. You are the very last thought I think about before my eyes close at night. You are the person I want to shower with love everyday....YOU are my PERSON.. That is what I mean when I say that to you... The tears wont stop as I write these words...

You are an amazing person and I feel lucky to have had our paths cross again all these years later... I have loved you for most of my life... I will always be here for you.. I hope you know that.. You mean everything to me... I hope you will be patient and understanding with me too..

Can't wait to talk to you about all this... I hope that you are okay