Im missing him so much these days.. I try so hard to get through my days and stay positive but it's so hard.. I miss him in everything I do. I want to share everything with him! It's extremely hard for me to go from being with him every night and day to only speaking with him at night.. if that! I don't think him or anyone really knows just how sad I truly am. I feel so empty and alone..
He wanted some "him time" yesterday which I gave him and we didn't talk last night like usual or on skype. Those nights are always rough on me and I have yet to hear from him tonight... I mean I understand he wants time alone, I guess it's just hard because there isn't ever a time when i want time alone or away from him.. Especially given our current situation.. We don't talk or see each other all day and I look forward to and cherish our nights.. Why is it that men don't miss us like we miss them? I try so hard to not bother him/call/txt/nothing... but there are times when it really gets to me.. and I get so down.. It's been too long since I felt his arms around me or kissed his lips and right now all I wanna do is see his face and talk with him and have him WANT to see my face and want to talk to me...
so sad... missing him so much!!!!!!!!!!
It's now 4 am which means it's 6am his time.. I'm bawling and shivering so bad I can barely type.. I never heard from him tonight and it's so unlike him that I'm so scared as to what this may mean.. I never expected this at all and I don't know how I'm supposed to take this... What is going on.. Where is he? why didn't he want to talk to me tonight? why isn't he answering now? why is his phone turned off? I"m just a mess... sobbing... did i do something? I just wish i knew why!
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