As I sit here tonight watching romantical movie after the other... I am sad.. (I should know better then to do this to myself) I am sad because I want so bad to be the women on the screen... I want to be happy and be with the man I love... Share my life.. experience new things... Laugh in bed at night, eat breakfast together in the morning... just the everyday normal things!
I know our situation is a unique one with lots of ups and downs and like he said "I did sign up for this and all that comes with it"
I just feel lost and confused at times and then so full of hope and love at others...
He is getting more distant by the day and wanting to talk less and less and I don't know what to do...I don't know how he wants me to be. I try and give him his space... I do understand what he is going through.. It's just hard for me cause all I have to go on is our conversation and when there isn't one.. I'm left feeling sad and confused. and I want him to know I'm not mad or frustrated at him....
Its all boils down to... I just miss him SOOOOOO much! I guess in a way I feel like I'm so close but yet still so far from everything I have ever dreamed of...
I know it's kind of selfish of me....but I just want it to be my turn...
I want my happy ever after...
I know I need to be patient and time will tell....I did sign up for this and I'm glad I did... I love him..
Like always....She is just missing him...
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